how many words can you get from "megan"

upon thinking today, my mind raced through all of the nicknames that people call me. and its funny, because i dont like people to call me anything other than megan.

(or when i was a drag king performer, my name was braylon for 2 years straight, and when i go out, it still is, but whatever)

so there are a few people i let call me "meg". like once in a while, my dad will say it, my friend lauren calls me meg and my cousin jen calls me meg. and its only those 3 that i tolerate it from. if you call me meg and i dont like it, i will kindly ask (yes actually i will kindly ask) you to not call me meg again.

theres one person that calls me "meggers", and thats my supervisor, scott. and him and i have had long deep conversations at work. we're pretty tight actually. he is supposed to be contacting me within the next 2 years when he buys this farm out in canada and he is building his own house and he wants me to draw up his construction blue prints for him. so thats gonna be a sweet gig. and actually i dont mind the name meggers, i would let someone test it out on me, sure, but i think its ok when he says it because he says it with enthusiasm like hes glad to see me. so maybe thats what sells it.

and "meggie" is another one. i HATE being called meggie omgggg. other than my (ex) sister-in-law, gail, i dont recall anyone calling me meggie. my brothers i think used to tease me with it when i was younger, but thats about it.

and of course theres the name given to me by my aunt ginger "meg pie". but that ones long gone from like grade school.

speaking of grade school, i was given the name "stewpot" by derek otter. one day we were sitting in class, trying to dream up nicknames for everyone there based on their last name. mine was stewpot, his was oatmeal... i remember matt gorhams was goulosh, lindsay clarks was clark bar. thats all i can remember. no ones but mine stuck. so i was known as stewpot... until 7th grade when the 8th graders thought itd be *funny* to nickname me "ham".... so NOT funny. but thats what they all called me that year. i just went along with it. whatever...

yeah... thats it... i strictly go by megan. and for the few people that call me meg, its ok cuz im used to it from them. like my cousin jen, shes always called me meg, ever since i can remember. and lauren.. shes always called me that. and dad just calls me megan when he is deep in a lecture about life or something blah blah.

anyways... i guess thats all i have to get off my mind tonight... im sure as soon as i post, ill be on writing another one just because i cant get to sleep with stuff on my mind. but if not, the blog world shall hear my words tomorrow! :)

my hair keeps getting longer

go'on git cha camera phone on its a photo shoot... girll... its a photoshoot.... girlll...


(gucci mane.... act like you dont know)


so i straightened my hair during my epilectic coma... not a good thing... im so tired tonight. i should be in bed. but i think my over tiredness has won me over. im like a crack fiend... eyes wide open, sunk in, jittery. gah.


well... heres some of my photoshoot, please keep in mind that ive had no sleep... i really do not look good. im surprised im putting them up here. but oh well.

seriously....

i dont understand why i havent been able to meet & marry her yet.






just sayin.


(rachel mcadams)

shit to ponder and whatever

If you try to fail, and succeed, which have you done?

A man with one watch knows what time it is; a man with two watches is never quite sure.

Believe those who are seeking the truth. Doubt those who find it.

I am a part of all that I have met.

Even a clock that does not work is right twice a day.

I tell you everything that is really nothing, and nothing of what is everything, do not be fooled by what I am saying. Please listen carefully and try to hear what I am not saying.

Think like a man of action, act like a man of thought.

The obstacle is the path.

What deep wounds ever closed without a scar?

I slept with faith and found a corpse in my arms on awakening; I drank and danced all night with doubt and found her a virgin in the morning.

tigers baseball babyyyy

as you may or may not know, i am a huge sport nut. mostly with baseball. its the one thing i can keep up in conversation with, know all the stats of *most* players, yada yada.


the tigers have gone the entire 2009 season staying in 1st place in the a.l. central division. the white sox and the twins havent knocked em down once. the w. sox got close tho a couple weeks back getting within 1/2 game trying to take over the spot and send us fishin for a wild card spot in the pennant race. but we came through with our offense and got our bats to wake up and we were at it again, now 7 games up on minnesota and 8 up on chicago. its a beautiful thing.


we have been 6-0 in the last 2 series weve had. swept cleveland and today finishing up the sweep at tampa bay. it was such a great game today because it was such a battle of pitching genius. a rookie, davis, for tampa starting late in the season 0-0 came out in 2 innings, struck out 4, gave up a yard knock to huff, then returned to strike out our last 2. he ended up fanning 9 in the game, which is awesome for a rookie especially in his major league debut, and i really cant get over that he fanned 6 in the first 7 he faced. tampa is gonna have a great pitching line up for next season with all the power pitchers they have right now, given they all stay and wont get traded.


ok enough with giving the other team a good name (even tho tampa bay is my other favorite team, gotta give em props. yes i said props)


so the TIGERSSSS won today and im givin you some awesome highlights, those of which were available to me, of course. i cant bring you the awesome line drive grab made by adam everett, our shortstop, in the 3rd inning? it was early in the game :-p BUT i can give you


*dun dun dunnnn*


BRANDON INGE and his super awesomeness that he brought with him to florida this series. so here it is folks.


so to start us off, we have aubrey huff's solo knock to get us on the board. he has, within the last 3 or 4 games, just been getting comfortable in a detroit uniform after being traded from the orioles. nice trade. hes a great bat.


and still fighting for the gold glove this year, he will never give up, inge gets a rocket to 3rd and gets the throw at 1st to end the 8th.


and here, for you is after joe madden had decided to make 4 pitching changes in one inning, the bases were loaded off of 2 walks to cabrera and thames and a base knock by ordonez... brandon inge is up, and they try to over power him. unfortunetly they made the mistake of pitchin in his happy zone. inge's grand slam. oh yeah.

and then to top it off, brandon lyon, who was iffy in the start of the season, has turned out to be STELLAR in the last 8 weeks. not letting in a run, besides one homer he let slip away. his era has fallen dramatically as well as his OBA. so here is brandon lyon to strike out zaun with the beautiful breaking ball (which has come to be his # 2 pitch) to end the game after the tigs come back from a 3-1 deficit to win 5-3 over the rays. yeah... its a beautiful thing.

im hungry

so after i was introduced and brought to this awesome place to eat at by my good best friend lauren, aka the jew, i havent wanted to eat anything but the yummy food we had there.


whats that?? where was it?? what did i eat??


oh FUNNY you should ask.. it was just this lil place called...

NOODLES AND COMPANY!! OMG.

 

so they have nothing but noodles. and some salad and soup and meat to have with your noodles if you want. yeah... best place ive ever ate at. well it ties benihana, seriously. i wouldnt lie to you about some food.

so... as i get home from work this morning, i was pretty hungry. i fasted for 12 hours like a muslim runnin the synagogue. and i dig in my refrigerator to conjure up some wonderfulness and this is all i could come up with....


turkey sandwich... on white... it was SO NOT noodles. hey -- atleast i put some lettuce and tomato on it to make it fancy "gourmet". sheesh, gimme a break.


so yeah. disappointing, but i am looking forward to going back. it was so worth it to go the first time. like a kid in a candy store. thats me! :)

little sleep with a beautiful day

so i get off work early last night (just an hour, not 4 hours like i wished) so that i am able to get home and get to bed at a *reasonable* time so i could wake up at 445am to be back to work for this bike race marathon thing across the bridge they set up.

which i thought was dumb, but i guess when you work there,

it seems less "magical" the more you see it.

anyways.

i brought some pictures to share with you from the sunrise this morning which was absolutely amazing. now my camera phone takes some sweet ass pictures but not as good as a cannon double mega super pixel 5000XL BH#E series. (please note the sarcasm).

the sunrise was BLOOD RED.  and the sun was HUGE. it was just amazing.

submerse yourself in the pictures. enjoy.

oh and ps... its totally in sequence. yes, that was planned.

this is overlooking the 3rd oldest church in the country (so im told) St. Anne's.

over on the right is caesars of windsor, the casino, which im dying to go to by the way. oh and that bar is on the bridge. cant have anyone fallin off, ya kno ;)

it just came up over that cloud. i cant express to you how HUGE it was. just beautiful.

last one, as it rose high into the sky.

i know my job sucks, and i know i cant stand going there because the management is pretty cruel some days along with the co-workers and disgruntled commuters, but to sit back and enjoy a scene like this going into the fall is just awesome.

whats this ? whats happening ? whats going on ?

walking away from work tonight, i looked up in the sky as i always do to find the stars shining so bright. maybe its just an old habit from being a kid growin up in a small town with no street lights. you could see the sky for miles and miles each night - - stars, moon, airplanes, satellites, planets.... lightning bugs...

anywho... as i tripped over small cracks and rocks

(still staring up of course cuz apparently i dont learn to watch where im going)

up above the bridge i noticed the moon bright as the sun. if you were to turn off all the lights on the streets, you would be able to make your way around just fine by the light of the moon.

and it got me thinkin (surprise surprise)

at times i wish i was more like the others. i wish i had a sweet computer in my room, with accurate lighting to take awesome webcam photos like all the ones i see out there. i wish i had a nice car to drive around and make people ooo and aaaah over. i wish i had some sweet jeans other than the wranglers i picked out from walmart that looked pretty decent. i wish i had an *actual* job that i could go to work at every day and love beyond anything else. i wish i was just 50 pounds lighter, i would be so content with myself.

but then again, those are wishes in a life that isnt ready to have me yet. i will get there in time. good comes to those who wait. i sure have been waiting and im not such a patient person, but in my *old age* i am getting better at it and atleast TRYING to become more tolerant. theyre just running thoughts that keep reminding me that i refuse to settle for a life of second best. i want it all. ill get it all. i had to detour off onto the "road to recovery" before i kept truckin on my "road to success".

im beginning to love myself a little more everyday. im saying that i am bored much less. school has started up i have begun to think in a different path once again, im happy with the direction my life is going right now, even though its still a bit blurry.

heres some thoughts for ya to sit on and dream for the gorgeous night we were blessed with...

"dont place your mistakes on your head, their weight may crush you. instead, place them under your feet and use them as a platform to view your horizons"

<3

inner most deep crap and whatever.

So this is my first blog and i guess i made it because i know i have to dump my thoughts & feelings somewhere. it seems as if the more i talk to people the more i can just *feel* them hating me and wishing i would stop talking. i am pretty sure thats not how it goes BUT. still.

i have been super ridiculous with my emotions this week. mad - sad - depressed - angry... anything and everything has been flying through my head. i have been staying strong and realizing that i am better than putting myself in the same situation over and over again, but it it so hard to deal without something you have relyed on for years. sometimes i wish she was still around, but most of the time im glad shes not. its been a horrible road with as much abuse as one can take on every level made. its my first time being by myself *acutally* by myself in over 5 years... its a little wierd, its lonely at times, its really hard to get used to. sometimes i wish i could run back, but i know after doing that several times, nothing will change, everything stays the same. and its ashame. that was a pure love like id never seen except in movies and it had to be ruined. i hate her for that. i could go on and on about all the crap ive dealt with but i dont wanna re-live everything. i just needed to get some stuff off my chest that i know i can talk to my friends about, but in very limited amounts.

i really dont have anything else to say as of now, im just getting used to this alone crap and trying to exact my blog profile because i like things a certain way. o.c.d. bah. ill post again im sure.